I'm a little whiny coz I miss a boy.
There is a lot this week:
four quizzes, maybe filing Canadian taxes, applying for an apartment, waiting to hear about a job, starting to exercise again, one of my best friends flying to spend a few days with me. These are just a few of the things going on...
I must begin college application...sometime!
All these things are good. I just want a much calmer daily life though.
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Walking along the beach in the spring...
My first walk along the beach in 2009!
So many roller-bladers around!
On Tuesday I will attempt to run on the boardwalk :)
So many roller-bladers around!
On Tuesday I will attempt to run on the boardwalk :)
How to make Toronto feel like NYC!
My best summers ever have been the ones I spent in New York City.
I expect my first summer in Toronto to be my best summer yet!
I'm applying to move to an apartment in a more centralized neighborhood in Toronto. From here on out it's the dumb logistics that I'm trying to figure out - rental application with the building office. I have a meeting with them on Friday.
Otherwise I'm excited at this possibility & really want this to happen :) :) :)
Meanwhile - the potential move - in date is 2.5 months away which is good coz it gives me a chance to really fall in love with the beach near my house knowing that it's temporary makes it that much more appealing!
Bring on the summer, Toronto...
I expect my first summer in Toronto to be my best summer yet!
I'm applying to move to an apartment in a more centralized neighborhood in Toronto. From here on out it's the dumb logistics that I'm trying to figure out - rental application with the building office. I have a meeting with them on Friday.
Otherwise I'm excited at this possibility & really want this to happen :) :) :)
Meanwhile - the potential move - in date is 2.5 months away which is good coz it gives me a chance to really fall in love with the beach near my house knowing that it's temporary makes it that much more appealing!
Bring on the summer, Toronto...
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Spring in Toronto!!!
Never mind that it snowed two weeks ago!
It's spring. Today I took a lovely walk through the park near my house. Everything seems so much lighter and jollier these days. I did some spring cleaning & I'm getting rid of junk internally & externally. Helena The Minimalist!
Of course there are some pretty uncool things in my life presently, like not getting the job I wanted, my computer acting up & my annoying roommates.
However there is awesomeness too:
I made two wonderful new friends during the past two days. There is a 90% chance that I'm moving on July 1st to a new home. (I will find out if I have been accepted on Friday). I'm applying for an awesome program for September (application due June 30th). I'm planning on teaching an outdoor fitness class for June 1st.
Lately I have a tendency to want to do things spontaneously - like calling people at the last minute to hang out, or randomly making new plans. This is the me that I've been missing! She's back!
Trusting the universe. The rest of the nitty gritty details will sort themselves out.
Thanks y'all for your support & for sharing part of my journey.
It's spring. Today I took a lovely walk through the park near my house. Everything seems so much lighter and jollier these days. I did some spring cleaning & I'm getting rid of junk internally & externally. Helena The Minimalist!
Of course there are some pretty uncool things in my life presently, like not getting the job I wanted, my computer acting up & my annoying roommates.
However there is awesomeness too:
I made two wonderful new friends during the past two days. There is a 90% chance that I'm moving on July 1st to a new home. (I will find out if I have been accepted on Friday). I'm applying for an awesome program for September (application due June 30th). I'm planning on teaching an outdoor fitness class for June 1st.
Lately I have a tendency to want to do things spontaneously - like calling people at the last minute to hang out, or randomly making new plans. This is the me that I've been missing! She's back!
Trusting the universe. The rest of the nitty gritty details will sort themselves out.
Thanks y'all for your support & for sharing part of my journey.
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Thursday, April 9, 2009
M-A-C makeup & unemployment!!!
Today was the last day at my job! I am so proud of myself for the 4 weeks I spent there. I learned SOO much & kept my integrity throughout. I left on a good note with everyone.
My co-worker Matt was so awesome. He really understood me even though I have barely spoken to him. He gave me such a firm handshake. To me that means the world. He said "you will know where you fit, when you get there".
It reminds me of my co-worker Paul from WSC in NYC. When I left my job last year, Paul said something like "enjoy the world & don't stop until you find your home...."
Honestly I'm realizing more and more that the home I seek is just me. These next few weeks it's just me. Reading, sleeping, running, writing, walking. The next step? Setting some concrete goals. Spending some time writing my business plan. Just being me. Being open to new opportunities...
I've been missing Super B, H & all your folks in the US of A.
Does the universe have perfect timing, or is the universe always fucking up with the timing of things?
Easter! Time for rebirth! Drastic & wonderful changes ahead!
My co-worker Matt was so awesome. He really understood me even though I have barely spoken to him. He gave me such a firm handshake. To me that means the world. He said "you will know where you fit, when you get there".
It reminds me of my co-worker Paul from WSC in NYC. When I left my job last year, Paul said something like "enjoy the world & don't stop until you find your home...."
Honestly I'm realizing more and more that the home I seek is just me. These next few weeks it's just me. Reading, sleeping, running, writing, walking. The next step? Setting some concrete goals. Spending some time writing my business plan. Just being me. Being open to new opportunities...
I've been missing Super B, H & all your folks in the US of A.
Does the universe have perfect timing, or is the universe always fucking up with the timing of things?
Easter! Time for rebirth! Drastic & wonderful changes ahead!
Monday, April 6, 2009
when is the last time i felt extremely happy & hopeful?
early December 2008.
I remember being so elated about a lot of things. I would talk to my family on the phone a lot. I was going to UUchurch on most Sundays, I had finished working on my website, I was learning to crochet, I was mega-excited to give my bf his holiday gift, I was cooking all the time, & the future looked so bright!
What happened in between now & then?
I barely talk to my family. I became less social. The Unitarian Church became so annoyingly boring & somehow spending an hour listening to some pastor talk about how we should pray, made me nauseous. As much as the UU is not a religious community, I hate the fact that they structure things around religion & model many things from Christianity. That really started to bother me. I still want to be involved in the community with things that interest me, so maybe once every three months an event may prop up that thrills me. Also I do keep in touch with pple I care about from the community...
How can I propel myself to thrive again?
Lately, I feel like I have no concept of what it is to dream anymore? I would like to learn again. Usually I'm an idealist who's super excited about everything. I came to Toronto to build a home and I'm wondering if I'm progressing towards my goal or just surviving. Friday is my last day at my draining job.
Part of my issue lately is that I feel like I am not surrounded by people who understand me or really get what I'm all about. I know those people exist & care about me, but why are they in Georgia or Boston or NYC? People with whom I can just be & not have to say anything at all & they understand me. There must be people like this somewhere in TO that I can build friendships with.
I am building some new friendships & looking forward to spending more time with some people like Naomi, Marco, Anna, Amanda & Lhe. These are people I am so honored to get to know better.
Honestly. The only things that excite me are:
-Getting a job at the company I've always wanted to work at (I find out by Wednesday)
-Achieving below 18% Body Fat by the end of 2009
-Moving to a new home
-Playing tennis outdoors
-Cooking more again
-Dinner Parties
-Finishing a novel
-Writing wellness articles
-Having a successful company
-randomly teaching a free yoga class in High Park or one of the lovely TO parks
-Visiting Montreal when my French improves!!!
-Living with people I care about
One step at a time. For now, I deserve a medal when I make it through to next Sunday!
I remember being so elated about a lot of things. I would talk to my family on the phone a lot. I was going to UUchurch on most Sundays, I had finished working on my website, I was learning to crochet, I was mega-excited to give my bf his holiday gift, I was cooking all the time, & the future looked so bright!
What happened in between now & then?
I barely talk to my family. I became less social. The Unitarian Church became so annoyingly boring & somehow spending an hour listening to some pastor talk about how we should pray, made me nauseous. As much as the UU is not a religious community, I hate the fact that they structure things around religion & model many things from Christianity. That really started to bother me. I still want to be involved in the community with things that interest me, so maybe once every three months an event may prop up that thrills me. Also I do keep in touch with pple I care about from the community...
How can I propel myself to thrive again?
Lately, I feel like I have no concept of what it is to dream anymore? I would like to learn again. Usually I'm an idealist who's super excited about everything. I came to Toronto to build a home and I'm wondering if I'm progressing towards my goal or just surviving. Friday is my last day at my draining job.
Part of my issue lately is that I feel like I am not surrounded by people who understand me or really get what I'm all about. I know those people exist & care about me, but why are they in Georgia or Boston or NYC? People with whom I can just be & not have to say anything at all & they understand me. There must be people like this somewhere in TO that I can build friendships with.
I am building some new friendships & looking forward to spending more time with some people like Naomi, Marco, Anna, Amanda & Lhe. These are people I am so honored to get to know better.
Honestly. The only things that excite me are:
-Getting a job at the company I've always wanted to work at (I find out by Wednesday)
-Achieving below 18% Body Fat by the end of 2009
-Moving to a new home
-Playing tennis outdoors
-Cooking more again
-Dinner Parties
-Finishing a novel
-Writing wellness articles
-Having a successful company
-randomly teaching a free yoga class in High Park or one of the lovely TO parks
-Visiting Montreal when my French improves!!!
-Living with people I care about
One step at a time. For now, I deserve a medal when I make it through to next Sunday!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Happy April!
Spring is here!
I haven't blogged in so long. I need stability. I've applied for a really awesome job. I will find out next week about the status of my application.
Meanwhile - popsicles & junk food & hope sustain me!
So much for holistic living & working at a gym!
More detailed updates soon. Wishing you all a beautiful Spring!
I haven't blogged in so long. I need stability. I've applied for a really awesome job. I will find out next week about the status of my application.
Meanwhile - popsicles & junk food & hope sustain me!
So much for holistic living & working at a gym!
More detailed updates soon. Wishing you all a beautiful Spring!
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