Happy April!

Spring is here!

I haven't blogged in so long. I need stability. I've applied for a really awesome job. I will find out next week about the status of my application.

Meanwhile - popsicles & junk food & hope sustain me!

So much for holistic living & working at a gym!

More detailed updates soon. Wishing you all a beautiful Spring!

Singing the beautiful winter blues until April Fools' Day!

I caved. I've stopped giving into my summery facade. I'm going to just enjoy these winter blues and take time and space and enjoy new habits and most of all acknowledge and enjoy the season!

I'll be back posting on here on April 1st. Meanwhile it's me and the icy rain and dirty snow banks and the slower season that demands my reflections, writing, meditations and holds so much hope for the summery spring and springy summer ahead.

Check back on the blog on & after April 1st! I'm wishing you all a happy season of good times and renewal!

Understanding holistic living...

In the fall I was priveleged enough to experience a few months of the best health ever. I felt wonderful about everything I ate, I sat down to eat slowly and cooked three times a day and exercised a occasionally and felt so positive and great about everything. I discovered how to eat so that I feel wonderful for the first time in my life!

Sadly, sometimes that perfect lifestyle isn't quite so feasible. It's interesting how changing even one little thing in your life or compromising can have negative effects. For example during these past two weeks I've drank 25% of the amount of water that my body is used to and I can assure you that it's probably the reason my mood has tanked. Dehydration. Of course I don't feel dehydrated, but clearly my body needs more water than I've been giving it. Lately I rarely sit down and eat and I made some changes to my food that are not geling well with my body. I feel gassy sometimes and I haven't felt this way until I switched my eating recently so I know that something isn't agreeing with me.

The beautiful thing is that I know exactly what I need to do in order to get my body and life back to the state it thrives best in. So I'm getting there...

To the friends that are my family...

I love you and miss you all...

In my dream world, we all live on the same street and we cook delishus Italian food & Swazi cuisine!!!!!!!!!!

Are you in on this deal? Holla!

My personality type is...

INFP

Read all about me here

Young & carefree!

"An adult is one who has lost the grace, the freshness, the innocence of the child,who is no longer capable of feeling pure joy, who makes everything complicated,who spreads suffering everywhere, who is afraid of being happy, and who,because it is easier to bear, has gone back to sleep. The wise man is a happy child."-Arnaud Desjardins

DEFINE WHAT SUCCESS MEANS TO YOU!

I am happy, healthy and I am successful. I can confidently say that statment and it's an exciting feeling.

For me, success is following my heart regardless of what society says. Success is answering only to myself and knowing that as long as I'm alright with it, then it's definitely alright.

I feel so blessed. I am very blessed.

To get where I am it's taken being true to myself and leaving a life of supposed stability that was literally killing me. I've let go of that feeling of trying to justify my decisions to the world. It's a really grand place to be where I am.

In Dec. 2007 I made my Dream wall, in November 2008, I made my soul painting, and in January 2009, I created my vision board.

I was able to share my vision board with some friends last night. It was uplifting to share. My positive energy, strength & vision is a million times stronger than any doubt that anyone holds in their mind.

Being unconventional has always been me. I believe everyone gets to define their own world and that there is no collective way that we must all be. 2.5 kids and a white picket fence and a stressful 9-5 for life and retirement at 65. FUCK THAT.

What's MY dream? well - if you're lucky I'll show you my vision board:)

My life has been this amazing crescendo and I'm at an awesome part in my journey. I would say that the most significant moments are:

• moving to NYC June '06
• working with a fitness trainer October '06
• pledging to a year of celibacy, teetotaller life & vegetarianism January '07
• realizing I needed to do everything it took to see my family December '07
• completing the NYC tri July '08
• launching into a new country not knowing what it would be like, but knowing it's where I needed to be. August '08
• Making the commitment to making myself the priority in my life January '09

It's so beautiful to find communities of people working on unconventional. It's not about rebellion at all. I think more and more it's apparent to me how society brainwashes us wherever we are. I hate colleges and institutions and formal education. I always have hated those things. I think it's that everything that has taught me to survive and make it is not in a book or taught to me, but rather learned through experience. I think of all the nonsense that many parents feed to their children. The effin lies. Maybe I talk about my own family here. It's taken forever to let go of the things I was taught early on in life and just claim my own beliefs.

What most inspired me to post was reading this article: CLICK HERE

To me reading such things and knowing that there are people I gel with and people around whom my way of thinking is the norm, is so beautiful. That's a community that helps me at all points of my journey. I need to be surrounded by envelope pushers and life outside boxes.

It's time. Step outside of corporations, pharmaceutical companies, convention, compliance, norms. Do something different today, just for you!

It's not a singular journey & I am grateful for the love, support & patience of others.

STEP INTO YOUR BEST SELF!